{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Soft Sensibilities","provider_url":"https:\/\/kimberlypearl.co\/blog","author_name":"Kimberly","author_url":"https:\/\/kimberlypearl.co\/blog\/author\/kimberlypearl-92gmail-com\/","title":"Gratitude &#8226; Soft Sensibilities","type":"rich","width":600,"height":338,"html":"<blockquote class=\"wp-embedded-content\" data-secret=\"exUS2MDI6S\"><a href=\"https:\/\/kimberlypearl.co\/blog\/gratitude\/\">Gratitude<\/a><\/blockquote><iframe sandbox=\"allow-scripts\" security=\"restricted\" src=\"https:\/\/kimberlypearl.co\/blog\/gratitude\/embed\/#?secret=exUS2MDI6S\" width=\"600\" height=\"338\" title=\"&#8220;Gratitude&#8221; &#8212; Soft Sensibilities\" data-secret=\"exUS2MDI6S\" frameborder=\"0\" marginwidth=\"0\" marginheight=\"0\" scrolling=\"no\" class=\"wp-embedded-content\"><\/iframe><script type=\"text\/javascript\">\n\/* <![CDATA[ *\/\n\/*! This file is auto-generated *\/\n!function(d,l){\"use strict\";l.querySelector&&d.addEventListener&&\"undefined\"!=typeof URL&&(d.wp=d.wp||{},d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage||(d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage=function(e){var t=e.data;if((t||t.secret||t.message||t.value)&&!\/[^a-zA-Z0-9]\/.test(t.secret)){for(var s,r,n,a=l.querySelectorAll('iframe[data-secret=\"'+t.secret+'\"]'),o=l.querySelectorAll('blockquote[data-secret=\"'+t.secret+'\"]'),c=new RegExp(\"^https?:$\",\"i\"),i=0;i<o.length;i++)o[i].style.display=\"none\";for(i=0;i<a.length;i++)s=a[i],e.source===s.contentWindow&&(s.removeAttribute(\"style\"),\"height\"===t.message?(1e3<(r=parseInt(t.value,10))?r=1e3:~~r<200&&(r=200),s.height=r):\"link\"===t.message&&(r=new URL(s.getAttribute(\"src\")),n=new URL(t.value),c.test(n.protocol))&&n.host===r.host&&l.activeElement===s&&(d.top.location.href=t.value))}},d.addEventListener(\"message\",d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage,!1),l.addEventListener(\"DOMContentLoaded\",function(){for(var e,t,s=l.querySelectorAll(\"iframe.wp-embedded-content\"),r=0;r<s.length;r++)(t=(e=s[r]).getAttribute(\"data-secret\"))||(t=Math.random().toString(36).substring(2,12),e.src+=\"#?secret=\"+t,e.setAttribute(\"data-secret\",t)),e.contentWindow.postMessage({message:\"ready\",secret:t},\"*\")},!1)))}(window,document);\n\/\/# sourceURL=https:\/\/kimberlypearl.co\/blog\/wp-includes\/js\/wp-embed.min.js\n\/* ]]> *\/\n<\/script>\n","description":"In the last two weeks I&#8217;ve felt more at ease with myself than I have in a long time\u2014a byproduct of growing older and wiser, I assume. The baby fat that clings to my cheeks, skims my waist, and sits on my thighs has not yet disappeared, but I&#8217;m less preoccupied with the extra inches. They&#8217;ll shed soon, my mother tells me.\u00a0Your body is plumping itself for carrying a baby. There will be no child in this womb, ever, but it&#8217;s reassuring to be reminded of how formidable the female body is.\u00a0Thank you for just knowing\u2014a gentle thought of gratitude, to myself. The shift, I think, came with small changes: making frequent trips into the city, where I always seem to feel alive; making plans to see my best friends (more sisters, really); spending an entire afternoon making new friends; eating more Chinese food; reading (I just finished\u00a0The Argonauts\u00a0and\u00a0Speedboat). Finally getting a facial after two years. Re-arranging a few things around my house to make room for more books\u2014mostly secondhand, because I love the smell of worn pages\u2014and a dinky Christmas tree. Faux, of course, because the thought of cleanup or worse, bugs, gives me the heebie-jeebies. Eleven dollars can&hellip;","thumbnail_url":"http:\/\/kimberlypearl.co\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/IMG_3524.jpg"}